My anxiety was the worst it’s been in a long time. I think it’s getting worse in general. I’ll go through periods where it’s very faint, but it always comes back. Tonight was so bad that I got out of the house and just started driving. I ended up at the beach. I sat in the sand and started listening to Pianoscapes on my ipod. After I got over the worries that were plaguing me at that moment, I eventually settled down. An hour passed and I left to go back home and now that I’m sitting in my room, I feel just as anxious. I don’t know what to do. I’m trying so hard…
howdy! I found your blog on facebook and saw you were a fellow aggie and decided to give you a try. After reading a couple articles, I fell in love with your blog. I love how you freely express yourself and your feelings. Not many people do that anymore. I know your blog is supposed to be about inspirations, but it seems like lately you have needed some inspiring. I’m not sure what is causing your anxiety, but I know it’s awful because I have had the same kind of experiences. It’s like you can’t do anything without constantly being drawn back to that one thing. It’s a fear and an obsession. More than anything you just want to let it go, but part of you keeps secretly waiting and desiring that feeling of security you can only get from that one thing, person, activity, sport, idea, or whatever it may be. Instead of blogging about how I feel, I have kept a journal. It really helps just to let out my feelings. Even though it doesn’t change my anxiety, for a moment I feel like I have control over it. I hope your blogging gives you the same kind of control, or better yet, that it makes your anxiety disappear for a while. I wish you the best of luck with your anxiety, but until then misery loves company, and I’ll be your company. Looking forward to your next post
Texasaggie,
Thank you for what you said. You know, one of the things that helps the most is just knowing that there is always someone who I can talk to who knows what I’m going through. And you’re right, I haven’t really been writing about inspiration lately have I? But you know what, your comment inspired me to write something better.
I don’t know who you are, but I hope you keep up with the posts! At least I know of one person who actually reads this blog.
Sam
That means a lot to me that I could inspire someone. I can’t wait to read it!